Whoo-hoo! It’s Friday..day five of the “10 Day Writing Challenge”. It is also my normal Five Minute Friday Post. I always seem to learn things when I participate in writing challenges. I’ve decided…writing daily challenges way more than your writing skills.
Consistency has a price tag.
Today’s word is Table.
Yesterday marked the one year anniversary of the release of my book, The Distracted Dance of Resilience. I remember feeling exhilarated, exhausted, timid, yet faith-filled.
God did some amazing things with the tangle of words He gave me to write. The Distracted Dance of Resilience debuted at the top of the Amazon new release charts.
I sat around tables of beautiful women discussing my book and hard topics like betrayal and forgiveness.
Over the summer, I attended a Christian Women’s Conference where I was able to present The Distracted Dance of Resilience to actual book publishers. (I self-published). With business cards, bio sheets, book proposals, and actual books in hand, I felt nervous but confident in the words God gave me to write.
My confidence packed her bags and left the conference five minutes into my first publisher appointment. The words, “not enough social media followers” and “contact me when you have sold over 2500 books and have multi-state speaking engagements” pierced my soul. The other appointments were very pleasant but a strong “no” wafted through the air.
So, I smiled, met some amazing women, and enjoyed the speakers. When the conference was over, I drove home in a blur of tears. Then, I put my book on a table in my office and moved on with life.
I have hardly mentioned my book to anyone since the conference.
The anniversary of the book release totally slipped my mind. One of my friends tagged me in a “congratulations” post yesterday and it jogged my memory.
How did I go from sharing my book around tables of women to allowing my book to collect dust on a table in my office?
Here is the answer to that question:
When the publishers said no, I decided that meant the words I wrote were not good enough.
I decided. I didn’t ask God.
In my own logical thinking…if the book was really good, the publishers would have wanted it…right?
Maybe, but none of them even read the book or the proposal.
I didn’t ask the one who gave me the words in the first place.
I “tabled” my book.
“What have you done?” asked Samuel. “Saul replied, “When I saw that the men were scattering, and that you did not come at the set time, and that the Philistines were assembling at Mikmash, I thought, ‘Now the Philistines will come down against me at Gilgal, and I have not sought the Lord’s favor.’ So I felt compelled to offer the burnt offering.” 1 Samuel 13:11-12
Just like Saul, when opposition arose, I became afraid God would not come through. So I felt compelled to stop promoting my book.
My LORD..please forgive me and direct me in where you want me to go with The Distracted Dance of Resilience and my life.
Have you ever felt compelled to “table” something without consulting God?