I attended a conference for aspiring Christian women speakers and writers this past weekend. To say that I felt a great multitude of ways in just a few short days would be a HUGE understatement. As I said in my post on the last night of the conference: I dreamed, cried, pouted, wilted and lifted desperate “Lord help me prayers”. I even texted my husband “I suck”.
I awakened on the last day much calmer than I had been the night before. Psalm 30:5 is true, joy does come in the morning. Although I had gotten off the emotional roller coaster, I still had my three minute video session to complete. (All of the women at the conference on the “speaker’s track” were supposed to shoot a 3 minute video that could be used on a website, for other marketing materials or simply just to assess your speaking skills.)
I decided that I was not going to show up for my pre-arranged video session and several other ladies decided the same thing. I am not sure of all of their reasons but my reason was simple, I did not have it all together. What I thought was “together” before the conference was then ordinary AT BEST (in my opinion).
Walgreens may be at the corner of healthy and happy but just giving up resides at “I am not good enough avenue”.
With quivering knees, I re-wrote my entire 3 mintue talk. I practiced it. I prayed, got focused and……I showed up.
Divas I JUST showed up.
Although my heart rate was RACING, my voice didn’t quiver. God placed the most encouraging Godly woman (LuAnn Prater) in my video room who smiled at me and prayed for me the entire time.
I showed up for my video session and God showed OUT!’
Was it perfect? Probably not but, perfection was NOT the goal.
So what’s next? I have not idea but I DO know I am gonna keep showing up.
Where do you need to keep showing up in your life?
“About 90% of life is about showing up, whether or not you feel inspired, prepared, brave, energized or motivated. Just show up and see what happens. Do your part and God will do His part. Your part: Just show up.” –Randy Siever
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