The last few weeks have been a whirlwind. I thought writing a book was one of the hardest things I have ever done because God really dealt with me on some tender issues while writing. I chuckle now because although writing was not easy, bringing a book to market has been unbelievably difficult.
It only takes a click to “publish” but prior to publishing there is editing, re-editing, reading over and over only to find another error after the re-edits, pricing decisions and marketing. But what makes my stomach churn and keeps me up at night is sharing my words with the world. What if people don’t like my book? What if I am not a good writer after all?
These Daunting questions squawk at me like crows sitting outside my window.
These crows are nothing like the three little birds Bob Marley sang about saying “Every little thing, is gonna be alright”. No, these crows say things like:
“A 21-day devotional is not enough.”
“You need more money so you can pay for professional help with your book and marketing.”
“You don’t have a strong author platform. You need more likes.”
“Look at those other authors, THEY know what they are doing.”
Squawk, Squawk, Squawk.
Last Saturday, the squawking really had me down. Even though I had an awesome opportunity to dance at an amazing women’s conference called Unspeakable Joy, my thoughts were all over the place. Obviously, one of those pesky crows came with me to the conference because as soon as I walked though the door I heard: “It’s JUST a twenty-one day devotional”.
Head down, deep sigh.
Since my group wasn’t dancing until after lunch, I was able to listen to some of the morning speakers. All of the speakers were amazing but “Ms. Clara” from the movie War Room was something else. “Ms. Clara” is actually Karen Abercrombie who is an actress and anointed woman of God. She told her story of how she landed the part of Ms. Clara which was thirteen years after she prayed to God about using her acting through ministry.
Hearing Mrs. Abercrombie speak was exciting. Meeting her in person was inspiring, and like getting a witty word from your wise grandmother who is so prayed-up you KNOW God talks to her. As I waited in line to meet her, I noticed her book on her product table. Her book (Deeper) is a 21 day devotional that she self published! I couldn’t do anything but laugh. God really has a sense of humor.
Of course I bought her book and she signed it for me! As she was signing, I shared with her that I wrote a 21-day devotional as well. She smiled and said “You did?”. “Yes ma’am” I answered. Then for some reason I confessed: “But I came in here feeling like a 21-day devotional was not enough. Then I looked at your table and what did you write? … A 21- day devotional.”
Out of no where, “Ms. Clara” leaned back with squinted eyes and said “God said…I already told you…a 21-day devotional.”
We both laughed and she embraced me. I walked away saying OK God I heard you.
Some amazing ladies from my class came and we got the afternoon session started by dancing on stage to Kirk Franklin’s He Reigns. I was so full when I stepped off the stage.
I also got to get a sweet hug from Luann Prater who is an amazing Woman of God! Luann was one of the leaders at a women’s conference I attended over six years ago when I first decided to write a book and speak to women. Luann has provided me with an awesome platform to showcase my fitness classes and has always been a source of encouragement and love. She leads the Encouragement Cafe Ministry and is a true blessing to my life.
Yes little crows, it is JUST a 21-day devotional but that is exactly what it is supposed to be.
The Distracted Dance of Resilience (Dancing away from life’s hurts towards healing and restoration.) Coming Soon!