Just about every Wednesday for the last nine years, I’ve shimmied my shoulders and swirled my hips with the backbone of my community. The laundry folders, boo-boo kissers, working mamas, Nanas, and hip single chicks file into the gym of our small community center for an hour of dance fitness, girl-time, prayer, and lots of movements to eight counts. For just a little while, all problems are outside the gym. When we are together, it’s moonbeams, rainbows and I’m pretty sure there have been unicorns. (Seriously!)
What is this magical place? On Wednesdays, it’s ZUMBA® class. On Saturdays, it’s Devoted Fitness® (a Christian dance fitness program).
In spite of all the warm fuzzies zipping around, I have a problem. I constantly feel pressured to create or learn new routines for class. When I haven’t done a new song in a while, my inner critic begins to chatter.
Experience has taught me, if I don’t like a song, choreography is not going to be easy. But when I like a song and the beat hits just right…I can do car choreography.
Car choreography is just like how it sounds. Song plays on my car sound system and I dance behind the wheel. It’s easy. There is no pressure or pushing, just dance moves stringing themselves together naturally in my mind. Calm down, there are no large motions unless I am at a stop light or in traffic.
But car choreography is a problem and not because of safety. Car choreography is a problem because it cannot be controlled. Some days I listen to a song and get nothing or only feel a few moves. Other days, I will force myself to listen to multiple songs inside and outside of the car and receive not one bit of inspiration.
On my way to class yesterday, I did not have a new song or new choreography. I had listened to several songs earlier but could not come up with anything. So as usual, I drew a line from not having a new routine straight to being a washed-up, scrub instructor. Then I prayed and asked God to help me. Y’all, on the way to class I played a song I downloaded a few weeks ago and it happened!!!!
Dance steps came together in my mind. There was no pushing, pressure or negative self-talk. Crazy part is, I’ve prayed about this before. Sometimes new choreography came and at other times…absolutely nada.
When I led the new song last night, I had an epiphany. The problem is not songs, choreography time, or skills. The problem is I keep trying to control what is not within my control.
As much as I would like to, I cannot control inspiration, other people and their problems, the weather, my children, my spouse, coworkers, or congress.
Nothing like a few hip gyrations to remind you-most things are out of your control.
How often do you fret around trying to control everything instead of trusting God?
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